There's a lot in this thing I wrote I'm so ashamed of if you have no idea, like not show face kind of shame.
I just sort of got up, turned on the computer, wrote it, and went back to sleep.
Then when I awoke in the morning with a jolt, the first thing I thought was I have to delete that.
But i left it up because there were a few good things I said and wished to convey.
But I left it up.
So maybe when I get better, I can look back on that and reflect, see how immature i am, see why I acted that way, both the good and, the fear, the anger, and why, how it's internalized and where it comes from.live with it and examine it, uncover it.
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It’s great and infomative reads!
Yes, it’s true. I know.
See I still think I can control things. The best thing in the world is when find that isn't true.
It's not something to just delete, it's something to think, not overthink, a bit.
It's one thing to make a mental construct in details of my life, but the subtext in weird notes, a simple understanding, is the healing.
Like where's the anger coming from, is some of it good, what about it is "locked in" and not appropriate social interaction.
So I can be honest, go within, be good, not an actor. Because I decided not to be long ago.
More than that, let love in by going within, also two things at once.
There's a lot in this thing I wrote I'm so ashamed of if you have no idea, like not show face kind of shame.
I just sort of got up, turned on the computer, wrote it, and went back to sleep.
Then when I awoke in the morning with a jolt, the first thing I thought was I have to delete that.
But i left it up because there were a few good things I said and wished to convey.
But I left it up.
So maybe when I get better, I can look back on that and reflect, see how immature i am, see why I acted that way, both the good and, the fear, the anger, and why, how it's internalized and where it comes from.live with it and examine it, uncover it.
thank you Nathan, thank you Chief. いつもありがとう